Archive for October, 2010

Bombs Away

run away
there’s a bomb in the back of my head
and if you stay
there’s a chance you will end up cleaning up the mess

if all my visions turn up fatal
change the station to something stable

tonight
im going straight for the throat
you don’t even know
tonight
im going straight straight for the throat
you don’t even know
what’s coming, what’s coming next
fall through the ceiling
fall through the floor
forget the feeling
just give me more time
run away
there’s a bomb in the back of my head

you know i love you
cuz im still breathing
forget the moments
as they come

tonight
im going straight for the throat
you don’t even know
tonight
im going straight straight for the throat
you don’t even know
what’s coming, what’s coming next

Kyle Andrews


Hmmm….. Should I be worried about this or just shrug it off and assume he simply likes it? O_o I’m not sure. 5 months yesterday, which is pretty amazing. There are some things we really need to talk about, but besides that… Everything seems so smooth, which gives me a bad feeling e_e Like too good to be true. Yet its strangely a relief from all the fighting months ago. I hate to fight. It worries/stresses me out ._. *sighs* <..>

I also had a pretty sweet dream about him yesterday when I was napping. I can’t help but smile everytime. In the dream, we were…. playing. Lmfao. That’s it. Playing. Its something I would like very much. Just… having fun without worries. I like teasing. I like fun. I don’t need to go to some amusement park. I just like to enjoy laughing with someone I love very much.

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Expectations

I’ve had a life where… most people just take you for granted. They never give in return. Even your family, and I don’t mean immediate. A few months back, I was told why my parents never had any friends… and that’s because all the friends they had, dragged them into stuff and also kept asking and asking. But why would they find more friends when we already had family the same way? On both sides. I’ve always felt “Don’t expect anything from people” and… it seems I shall continue thinking that. Nothing has changed. Right now, I’m so disappointed once again. Not even angry… What would be the point?

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Loneliness

Sometimes I can’t take being alone and by myself for too long. And I just don’t like to bother anyone. Especially when I myself don’t feel like talking. Really, I just want one person, but…. Can’t always have what I want.

I guess I’m too dependent or whatever. I really could care less at the moment. Feeling so down and so tired. I literally feel grateful there’s church tomorrow. I don’t know why.

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Its Raining!

And I’m so happy x) I know I twittered this, but that’s how happy it makes me. I really want to walk in the rain now :( But I just showered. I was hoping it’d make me feel better and while it did, hearing the rain pouring down just made it all better. At first I thought it was like this noisy truck coming into the dairy, but I forgot what the forecast would be when I checked earlier.

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